Thursday, December 04, 2003



Revelation 3:16
"So, because you are lukewarm–neither hot nor cold–I am about to spit you out of my mouth."

i'm suddenly gripped by this cold fear. i'm not ready to meet jesus. not at all. i don't dare to account to him my life now. no, not in this state i'm in now. i don't want to be lukewarm anymore, i've been lukewarm for far too long.

i need to know the bible more.
i need to understand the word more.
i need to give not just my best, but the best of my best in whatever i do for Him.

i'm really scared of facing him right now. what have i done that i can proudly declare myself a child of God?

i can't say i honestly really know the bible. i mean, there's so much more i need to understand and learn. i doubt i'm ready for all the testings and trials God is going to put me through. i can only pray that through His guidance am i able to take care of his flock.

i really really need to grow. i think we all need to.
PUAY! :) // 3:43 AM //